We're having a BABY!!

              It's true!! I am sooo excited. I always feel the same way and same excitement as my first pregnancy.  We had been trying before, but nothing happened. I noticed my "dreadful day" hadn't come yet so I started to count the days to see if it was time and I was late indeed. I know my body and I knew at that moment that I was pregnant. I told Jahvel I needed to go to the store and he asked me why and I told him I needed to buy a pregnancy test. He smiled and said "why? you're not pregnant!' I said, " I know I am and congratulations you're gonna be a daddy again!" he smiled some more and said, " I knew you were." We went and bought it and he told me not to take it until he got back from school, but I told him I wasn't gonna be able to wait that long. I went ahead and took it and as soon as I saw it I had the biggest smile on my face when I saw those two lines. I started making a congrats banner and hung it on a wall so that as soon as Jahvel walked in he would see it. He walked in the house all serious and it took him a few seconds before he saw it and his face lit up with a smile.

I am so excited about the news. I have been wanting another baby for a while now,  but because of our situation right now we were really hesitant and thought a lot about the timing. Jahvel and I have been on a different boat for a while now as well. He'd tell me he wanted another baby and I'd be like,"No, not right now, I'm not ready" and then as the  weeks and months went by I started thinking about it and then I would be the one telling him I was ready, but then he wasn't and it went on like that for a while, until we finally agreed on it.

I do feel a little nervous about it though because of Jahvel going to PA school and us having to move again. It's like going through everything we went through 2 years ago when we had Mia. It's not easy moving with a new born. One thing is for sure though......the baby is going to be born in St. George, UT. Now we still don't know what the future looks like and what is going to happen. We have a lot of praying and planning to do. I just know that whatever it is our Heavenly Father has planned for us it's gonna be ok and we are gonna be very blessed for bringing a new life into this world and into our home.

Velani and Mia are both very excited and they have already begun to rub my "lonja" because I still don't have a baby bump. Every time Jahvel tells Mia that she's not the baby anymore she just says "OH!" and when he tells her the baby is in my belly she laughs and rubs it. Velani is excited and asks me if I'm gonna have the baby tomorrow. So I already told her that when it's Mia's birthday I will have the baby. Velani also kept saying she knew what the banner read and she would say it slowly "CONGRATS" and Mia kept telling her "No! no cograts" she would ask me what it would say and I would say "Congrats" and again she would say "NO!" and then she finally said in a slowly way while pointing at it "dice, NO BABY!" bwahaha. I don't know how she feels exactly, but I'm sure she's gonna be happy for the new baby and maybe a tiny bit jealous.

My thoughts now are:

The baby's gonna be due end of June early July.
Mia and the baby will be 3 years apart.
Hopefully it's June so that I don't have two July babies.
I'm so glad Mia is out of diapers.
I'm not trying to steal Bralison's thunder.
I'm glad Jahvel decided not to take the crib to the garage sale we just had.
I'm gonna get big.
I need cute pregnancy clothes.
I really want a boy, but I'd still be very happy with another girl.
I need to prepare myself mentally in case it is another girl.
I hope I don't go crazy if I do have a 3rd girl.
I'm gonna go to school for only one more semester.
I'm still very excited about Bralison's baby and I can't wait.
I feel weird and nervous.
I need to start exercising.
I wonder what this baby will look like?

So now you know.

Another side of me!

I kind of left this little experience out from the last blog and decided to do a blog of it's own. I have many sides and I think we all do. We choose to let others see our good side most of the time and kind of keep our other sides personal. Well, I have a good side, a bad side, a sentimental side (which I'm sure everyone has definitely seen before). I cry a lot and sometimes I wish I didn't, but I just can't help it, really!! When I'm happy, I cry. When I'm mad, I cry. When I'm sad, I cry. When I'm sleepy......well I sleep of course hahaha (ya seria el colmo). This bothers me because I feel like others see it as my weakness, which it very well could be, but I'm the only one who really knows me very well and even though I would like to change that it's just not gonna happen. So now you know  I pretty much cry all the time, but that's not what happened in this case. I was surprised to see this side of me come out and to be honest it caught me by surprise. I am not the confrontational type of person at least not with strangers and if they say something I just ignore them. I have never really had any problems with anybody before though. 

As I am telling you the story I want you to put yourself in my situation and let me know if I was wrong. So we were @ Disneyland taking a picture with Donald Duck and as soon as we finished I noticed Snow White walking by. I didn't want  Velani to miss the opportunity to take a picture with her and get her autograph so I took the stroller and tried to catch up to her as fast as I could. Now, of course, I am not the only one after her there are other people chasing after her as well. When we finally get to the place where she was at I kind of just stood next to the other people (about 4 or 5 of us get to her first). We are kind of circling her so we can get the picture taken, but then Alice and the mad hatter arrive and start talking to each other and we are waiting for her so she cant take those pictures with us. By this time more and more people arrived, but I never turned to see anybody. I was there for the autograph and picture and that was my purpose, but Miss Snow White is still talking to those other two and ignoring the people who are there to take pictures with her. She finally notices there are a lot of people waiting for her and she says "If you want to take a picture with me you have to get in line along this fence." So that first family that was there when I arrived still hadn't taken a good picture with her until she announced that ( 7 -10 minutes have gone by now since I got there ). So I'm standing a few feet away from the fence waiting  for my turn when this Chicana lady says "Um, ma'm, you have to get in line" ( as she pointed back). That is when I noticed how many more people had arrived AFTER us and she was one of them. So I said, in what I thought was a nice way,   "yeah,but I was already here"  and she said "yeah, but she just said to get in line if you want to take a picture with her." then I said  with a little attitude "OKAAY, but I was here first"  and she gave me this look and turned to her boyfriend or husband and said " Gosh! some people just don't have any class!" and I turned around again and said more strongly and with a nastier attitude " Yeah, that would be you!". 

 I still think about it and it still bothers me because I have never been told anything like that before and wonder of how I really must have sounded and acted for her to say that. I probably would have kept on going at it with her if I kept on listening to the rest of the things she said, but Snow White finally acknowledged us and we took our picture and just left. So my point of view is this: I wasn't gonna go stand behind a huge line knowing I got there before all of them just because they got in line faster than I did when Snow White made that announcement. I mean if I knew there was someone else before me I would have let her gone first because she got there first, right? 

Anyways, I guess I just need to let it go. The point of all of this is I noticed a different side of me. I knew I had it within me, but never really used it on some stranger before. It kind of felt good telling her what I thought instead of keeping quiet. It showed I had a strong side and guess what? I didn't cry! 

P.S. Now I know that if Snow White had just payed attention to us as soon as we got there instead of chit chatting with her fellow colleagues none of that would have happened. I was upset at her too, but don't  tell Velani. 

Here is a picture to prove what I just said. Hmm I wonder how long I really took from the time I got there to the time I left? mom?

And still ignoring!! argh

Disneyland

We finally had the chance to take make our trip to Disneylad and it was GREAT!! I think I enjoyed myself more than the girls. It was such a short trip and I wish we actually had money to have stayed there longer, but I guess it was better than nothing. 

At the beginning of the year we volunteered in our community through a program from Disney so we could get free tickets. Jahvel and I volunteered at an auction for about 3 hours or so. We then printed our tickets and waited 'til September to go. Mom, Braulio, Alison and Andres cleaned school buses and got their tickets too. The girls were so excited to go and we even watched videos about all the rides and they chose the ones they wanted to get on. I made them costumes to wear. Velani wanted to be Ariel from the Little Mermaid and Mia wanted to be Minnie. Everything seemed to be perfect until we actually got there. First of all we were going picture crazy and the guys didn't like that very much and the girls got tired of it as well. Then we couldn't decide where to start first. So we got on a ride that looked alright from the outside, but it ended up being a little scary and the girls cried when we got off. That kind of ruined everything else. They didn't want to get on anything not even the ones they said they wanted to get on (like the flying dumbos). So I had to force them to get on some other non scary ones. We all had to put up with them while waiting in line, but as soon as they realized it wasn't too bad they seemed happy. 

What really made their day was meeting all the princesses, getting their autograph and picture taken with them. I even got all teared eyed because my daughters were so HAPPY especially Velani. It was and still is such a great feeling. I would love to always do something that makes them feel so happy like that day. It got really hot and we hadn't even made it half around the park when we took a break for lunch. After lunch no one wanted to go back because they were tired and hot, but I wasn't gonna miss out and the girls weren't either. So Mom, the girls and I went back and actually stayed longer than we said we would. We got to see a little more of the park, but not all, maybe just half. We also got on some other rides with the girls. We ended up leaving at about 9 (I think) and when we got back to the hotel we went to the pool and sat in the jacuzzi for a while before going back to the hotel and ordering some food. Our feet were aching, but I think it was good overall. I would like to go back when the girls are a little older and when they aren't so scared of getting on some rides. Oh and wait they actually got on the carousel before we left after they had said they didn't want to get on (that made my day).

I don't ever want to take a trip as short as that one again. The girls are already asking to go back. Velani says that we have to go back or the princesses are gonna cry. Yeah like that's gonna convince us! That just makes me want to take more vacations with them so that we can all spend time together and enjoy ourselves.

I can't wait for our next vacay!!! (hopefully a cruise).