I was working as an interpreter and the phone was turned on from 9 am until 6 pm. At first they told me that if I couldn't answer calls to just put the phone on Do Not Disturb until I was ready to take the calls again. The calls came in at any random time. I could be cooking, changing a diaper, bathing my girls, you name it. It was very frustrating!!!! I would put it on Do Not Disturb during these times, but they would call me on my cell phone and ask how much longer I would be off line because they needed me!? I didn't get it then! I found myself being mad most of the time, stressed out and frustrated. I kept trying to keep the girls quiet so that I could do my job. At times I wanted to just give up and quit, but then again I didn't want to. I wanted to work from home for some extra little cash and help pay off some debt, it was an easy job and it paid pretty good.
I prayed many many times and asked my Heavenly Father for some patience and instead he made it a little easier for me. It was all over on Wednesday of last week. I received a call from my employer and they asked if I could take the phone back to the corporate offices and that they understand that I am busy and that they would just transfer fewer calls to my cell phone instead. It hit me and very hard!!!! I was mad very mad, but then after letting the anger out I realized that I wouldn't feel frustrated, mad, stressed, hurried and like a prisoner in my own home anymore. I would just be a mommy! That is the most important calling I could have. I don't need to answer to anyone or stay locked inside my home all day until 6 pm. I can do and go anywhere I want with my girls and have fun, all of us or just stay at home and watch movies, play games, sing songs and just take our time doing these things. No need to be quiet anymore, not like it was before, heehee! I don't need the extra cash, I need the extra time to be with my girls and enjoy them.
I feel great this Monday morning! waking up taking my time to feed some hungry people and watching cartoons at a volume louder than 8 and actually enjoying it. Not running to the phone and hushing up these girls and making hand signals to Velani to watch Mia.
I know that my H.F. wants me to be a mother first and he knew how I was feeling having that job and knew that I really wanted to quit deep down inside, but couldn't or didn't know how to. He knew that I was wasting precious time. He wants me to be a better mom and wants me to be patient and now he will begin to test my patience some other ways so that I may learn to develop this "virtue" because I'm sure you've heard that patience is a virtue, right? Well, he's testing that patience at 2, 3, and 6 in the morning. I think I'm getting better at it!
So now all I have to do is make some time to learn, but not before taking care of my babies, they're first.
"There has come to you as your birthright something beautiful and sacred and divine.
Never forget that. Your Eternal Father is the great Master of the universe. He rules over all,
but He also will listen to your prayers as His daughter and hear you as you speak
with Him. He will answer your prayers. He will not leave you alone."
-Gordon B. Hinckley
"As you create a home, don't get distracted with a lot of things that have no meaning
for you or your family. Don't dwell on your failures, but think about your successes.
Have joy in your home. Have joy in your children. Have joy in your husband. Be greatful
for the journey."
-Marjorie Pay Hinckley
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