What do you think?

I have been spending time on my blog, can you tell?

I wanted to make it prettier and well, I still have more work to do on it, but what do you think of it so far?

I am determined to keep this blog up to date. I know I have said that before, but hey I am gonna keep saying it until I do!

Ok so now it's time for a funny moment that occurred a few nights ago. As I have mentioned before (about the 2 and 4 am awakenings) it is hard to keep my girls in the same room because when one wakes up the other will wake up too. So this time it wasn't any different. Mia woke up and here I go all groggy and tired, it's hard to go down those stairs in that situation, but I don't want the other child to wake up so I try to do it fast. I nurse Mia and she falls asleep and now I have to put her in her crib nice and slowly so she won't wake up. I fail! I rock her until once again she falls asleep and again I try to put her in the crib and again she wakes up. I do this several times rocking her longer each time and it just doesn't work sooooo I give up! that's right it has been an hour and it doesn't seem like it will work at all so I just give up. I put her in her crib and hope she will just cry it out a little and fall asleep.

Velani is still sleeping and I figure she won't wake up. I go upstairs and lay down while Mia is crying it out. A few seconds after I lay down I hear the door open. "Oh no, here we go!" I say to Jahvel who is now awake.

"Mami! que le hiciste a Mia?" yells Velani "dale boob!" She then went back to bed and fell asleep again and Mia? she is still awake and crying so for Velani's sake, I did exactly what she told me to until finally Mia fell asleep.

Jahvel and I were just cracking up afterwards. Velani is just a hoot! she said the word boob. How does a 2 year old now that word? Well, she learned it from her father, of course. He doesn't say go breastfeed or nurse, he says give her boob and that is how Velani learned it.

So there you have it, another funny story thanks to my daughter. My life is just more fun and sweet with my girls. You just never know what will come out of her mouth next and it's not always fun and games, read previous posts.

TTFN (ta ta for now)

Drama Mama!

I know I have said it many times before, but Velani IS a drama queen and I am her mama.

I have been going through some difficult times with my precious 2 year-old-going-on-13-instead-of-3!!! and I am not exaggerating when I say that.

The day before yesterday we had our first big fight. Like one of those fights I had with my mom when I was way older because I couldn't go out with friends, except Velani isn't way old like I was and it wasn't because I didn't let her go out with her friends.

She loves watching cartoons. Anyways the point is that she can watch cartoons, but not when she is eating. So I turned off the t.v and boy, I didn't see it coming to me. She threw a huge tantrum and was screaming at me like never before. She went into her room and slammed the door, SLAMMED it, can you believe it? she toldme to leave her alone and not talk to her.

Where did this all come from?

Well, I left her in her room until she calmed herself down and when she came out she asked me to say sorry because I yelled at her, yes, I am guilty! I yelled at her, but after I kept asking her nicely to stop yelling at me, she was totally out of control, I tell ya. I did apologize and she apologized as well and we had a talk, I explained to her why she couldn't watch t.v while eating and well after everything was said she said "Ven mami, dame un hug" so we hugged it off and everything was ok again.

I don't want a preteen in a 2 year old body. I want just that, a 2 year old! I want my baby to enjoy her childhood and I hope this is just a phase she is going through. The funny thing is that she has a little sister who looks up to her and is watching her.

Uh-oh! I think I am outnumbered.

Patience!

I'm a mommy first!

There are many things I want to do, but can't or don't know how to. I stress myself out a lot because I try to do many things at once. I want to keep myself busy and learn how to do new things so that I can be a better mom, wife and person.

I was working as an interpreter and the phone was turned on from 9 am until 6 pm. At first they told me that if I couldn't answer calls to just put the phone on Do Not Disturb until I was ready to take the calls again. The calls came in at any random time. I could be cooking, changing a diaper, bathing my girls, you name it. It was very frustrating!!!! I would put it on Do Not Disturb during these times, but they would call me on my cell phone and ask how much longer I would be off line because they needed me!? I didn't get it then! I found myself being mad most of the time, stressed out and frustrated. I kept trying to keep the girls quiet so that I could do my job. At times I wanted to just give up and quit, but then again I didn't want to. I wanted to work from home for some extra little cash and help pay off some debt, it was an easy job and it paid pretty good.

I prayed many many times and asked my Heavenly Father for some patience and instead he made it a little easier for me. It was all over on Wednesday of last week. I received a call from my employer and they asked if I could take the phone back to the corporate offices and that they understand that I am busy and that they would just transfer fewer calls to my cell phone instead. It hit me and very hard!!!! I was mad very mad, but then after letting the anger out I realized that I wouldn't feel frustrated, mad, stressed, hurried and like a prisoner in my own home anymore. I would just be a mommy! That is the most important calling I could have. I don't need to answer to anyone or stay locked inside my home all day until 6 pm. I can do and go anywhere I want with my girls and have fun, all of us or just stay at home and watch movies, play games, sing songs and just take our time doing these things. No need to be quiet anymore, not like it was before, heehee! I don't need the extra cash, I need the extra time to be with my girls and enjoy them.

I feel great this Monday morning! waking up taking my time to feed some hungry people and watching cartoons at a volume louder than 8 and actually enjoying it. Not running to the phone and hushing up these girls and making hand signals to Velani to watch Mia.

I know that my H.F. wants me to be a mother first and he knew how I was feeling having that job and knew that I really wanted to quit deep down inside, but couldn't or didn't know how to. He knew that I was wasting precious time. He wants me to be a better mom and wants me to be patient and now he will begin to test my patience some other ways so that I may learn to develop this "virtue" because I'm sure you've heard that patience is a virtue, right? Well, he's testing that patience at 2, 3, and 6 in the morning. I think I'm getting better at it!

So now all I have to do is make some time to learn, but not before taking care of my babies, they're first.

"There has come to you as your birthright something beautiful and sacred and divine.

Never forget that. Your Eternal Father is the great Master of the universe. He rules over all,

but He also will listen to your prayers as His daughter and hear you as you speak

with Him. He will answer your prayers. He will not leave you alone."

-Gordon B. Hinckley

"As you create a home, don't get distracted with a lot of things that have no meaning

for you or your family. Don't dwell on your failures, but think about your successes.

Have joy in your home. Have joy in your children. Have joy in your husband. Be greatful

for the journey."

-Marjorie Pay Hinckley

Tooth be or not tooth be!

Tooth be!

The tooth fairy has decided to stop by at our house this weekend and not to pick up a lost tooth I must say, this tooth fairy is actually a different type of tooth fairy.

There is an 8 month old little girl who finally has her first tooth! I am excited, but then again I am scared and you can imagine why. You can't imagine why? then all I need to let you know is that I am still nursing her.

I have to tell you that Mia is a very sweet sweet little girl, when she is in a happy mood that is, but when she isn't......MOVE OUT OF THE WAY! She has a bad temper and throws BIG tantrums. She will throw herself back or at you if you take something away from her, even if it's not hers. It's not a pretty sight, but it is kinda funny. So I guess I just need to make sure she is in a good mood when nursing.

So I better stock up on yummy finger foods for little Miss Mia who has been ready to eat other foods for a while now. She wants what we eat and what Mia wants we have to give or else!

Thankful Thursday!

I have a few reasons to be thankful today.

I have finally been getting some sleep, more than usual. I have to thank both my daughters for that.
I am thankful for Velani's sense of humor, this girl can really make me laugh, I tell you what.
I am thankful for Mia, this little precious-not-so-baby-anymore has such a sweet spirit.
I am so thankful that I am a stay-at-home mom and that I am able to enjoy every moment of these two little girl's lives, even if it means grey hairs!
I am thankful for sweets, I have been eating too many sweets lately! and I love it.

and just off the record, I just have to let you know how Velani's vocabulary has been increasing, she has come up with some of her own unique words, kinda reminds me of Tony.

Readamelo (it's read and melo as in leemelo or read it)
pongemelo( ponmelo )
vengiste (veniste) she likes to add that "G" in some of her words.

These are just some of the newer words.

Mama!

Those were Mia's first words. I know she knows what that means. I got very emotional when I heard that word coming out of her mouth one morning.

Like every morning, I am too tired to get up. I just want to stay in bed and get a little extra sleep, ok a lot of extra sleep, but Mia just doesn't quite like that idea. She is determined to get some mommy time before big sister wakes up. There is this routine we all go through every morning. Jahvel wakes up and starts getting ready for school, Mia wakes up after him (around 7:30 AM) Jahvel will go downstairs and bring her up and plays with her in bed, so then they wake me up and Velani is the last to wake up (around 8:30 AM). This special morning was a bit different. When Jahvel went to get Mia I really really didn't feel like waking up so I covered my face with the blanket (that's his hint). They were playing and being loud and I just couldn't fall back asleep, but I was determined to stay in bed longer. I took a quick peek and saw Mia, but I didn't let her see me, a few minutes later I took a peek again and that time she saw me and smiled. What happened next was the sweetest thing ever. She said MAMA and started crawling towards me with that beautiful smile that could make everyone melt, ok maybe not everyone, but it sure makes me melt. I was completely awake and smooching on her and rubbing it in Jahvel's face.

I deserved that moment and let me just tell you that I love that my girls are always happy to see me and want to be with me even though sometimes it doesn't seem like it. Really, after everything we do as moms how can we not enjoy and love that feeling when we see the glow, excitement and love in their eyes every time they see us? we can and I feel very special.